One day I want to get rid of everything and have absolutely nothing and feel the extreme of it all, because I want to experience LIFE.

so stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see, nothing is real 'til it's gone.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine.

That was a very scary/strange night for a number of reasons. The main one being that I dubbed Lana's part in the musical. It's quite a lot of singing, I can really understand why her voice is gone. People were lovey about it though. I know that I'm no Lana, but I think it could have been worse.
In other news, things that I have recently realised that I worry about:

& losing every possession I own because I suck.
Along with almost everyone I know. I worry for you. I think it might be because I know so many incredible people and I have been charmed by them all.


"Sometimes it's a form of love just to talk to somebody that you have nothing in common with and still be fascinated by their presence."
~David Byrne

Tired and a little bit fed up.

I always think that when I'm annoyed, it has to be my fault, because no one can force you to feel anything. People's actions are sort of a catalyst, but they can't make the change on their own. Therefore, any state of unhappiness that you feel is caused, started, manifested and fed by you. So don't complain when you're in a bad mood because it's no one's fault but your own. No one has the right to be rude to people because they are angry about something else, which I have been for the last couple of days and I really feel bad about it. But the greatest thing about people is that they are forgiving and understanding. Even if they won't admit it, people can't hold grudges for long without a reason. I hope that I can always forgive and forget, but never forget how to forgive because I need people to give and receive love. Everyone does, I think.

Oh God, I'm quite obviously extremely tired.
Night lovers.

These are the days that bring life meaning.

I think I'm just really happy. I might even make a happy dance.

This is a dedication to my favourite boy, who is nearly 18 and whom I love:

There is a distinct chance I might just shrivel up and die without you.

It's not unusual.

How much money would you pay for happiness? Would you pay everything you've got? You would have to, wouldn't you? But if you really think that money can make you happy then you wouldn't pay everything. Because then you would have none left, and then you wouldn't be happy.

What can I write about today? Shall I dazzle you with my humour, charm you with my wit? Shall I shock you with profanities or make you think deeply with my insight? Rather, today I think I will hardly blog. In fact, I'm going to go to bed and sleep and wake up in the morning and have a nice hot shower. You should try it, showers and sleep make life pleasant.

Can I just point out that that is a steam room?! Guys...I'm gettin' me one of those.
Night sunshine :)

Rock Rock, Rock 'n Roll High School.

Would you still be my friend if I was a punk rocker?

Stop ignoring me. I want to be adored.

This is me, not studying, in the library, not studying.

Love.

Everyone is just so nice!

Chorals happened. It happened in an enormous way. Dryads won everything which was incredible and also felt really good because our madrigal conductor and directors as well as everyone involved had worked so hard. I am currently just so full of love! It's really great to win and the competition is half of what makes it so fun, but in truth, the real thrill comes from the performing in front of people you love. I am so proud of every single person involved in chorals because more than winning the cup, it's about putting on a show, and the shows we put on were full of different talents, laughter and joy. I really think that the way we handled the problem of a broken hall and a change of venue (for the first time in 73 years) really says a lot about the character, resiliance, adaptablilty and commitment of the girls from our school. I am full of pride and love to the brim, I think I'm going to swell and explode from how much I just love so many people. I hope everyone understands this because there just aren't enough words for me to tell you all how much I love you.

(Check out that Dryad tree. Bro! That's wacky cool. I feel like this needs to be on the house board.)

And everyone is just being so kind! People keep saying lovely things about the performance and I really, really appreciate it, but I don't know how to respond. I just. Love. Everyone. Gahh!
I really just want to have a huge rant about how much I love my life but I think that might get old and boring. But I'll just say one thing: Being alive is really, really great. everyone get onto that.

"Don't ask wat the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."
-Howard Thurman