Here's a title that would shock;

I saw a few good things today:

Ugly, dirty graffiti next to a train line that said "Love is the only reality"

My goddaughter. Sometimes I get scared that I'll miss her growing up and then suddenly she will be my age and I will be old. I want to be able to give her so much, but I don't know if I can. Babies are so tiny and precious and vulnerable. Perfect. Maybe I'm worried that I'll ruin her. I want her life to be easy and I want her never to have to worry but that is impossible because an easy life isn't a good one. How do you give someone the world when all you own are the clothes on your back and the random crap in your messy bedroom (which was bought by your parents anyway)? All I can give her is all of me and all of my love and hope that she appreciates it even though it is so simple and probably not very useful. I hope that my love can be enough for you, because I don't know how to give you more than that.

Coconut rice. In a sense. It's cooking now. I am all over Asia night man, I have got the coconut rice COVERED.

My favourite Haiku:

Haikus are easy.
But sometimes they don't make sense.
Refrigerator.

Reminded me of the train poems.
I really just love graffiti. But I pretend to disapprove of it, so shhh.

So, boys and girls this brings us to the end of another post. I'm off to pwn Asia night. I may or may not let you know how it goes.
Bye now (:

I carry your heart here with me, I carry it in my heart.

"Hate is easy; Love takes courage"

OK so I've decided to spew-type. These next things may or may not be related to each other/anything. I guess we'll see.

Firstly, Is this even real? I mean it, this can't be real because this is the stuff of movies.
This does not happen in real life. But this is happening in mine.
I LOVE MY LIFE.

So two of the people I am the most infatuated with spent yesterday and today with me. To rub it in the faces of all the people who have exams, we literally spent the whole two days doing nothing. We call them ceebs days and I swear to God I live for them. I have been intensely efficient/busy etc for the last few weeks and now that it's all over I crave silences, stillness and sleep. I got my fill and it was so worth it you have no idea.
So my birthday's soonish and pretty much all of my friends are going to be out of the state/at a netball competition which will undoubtedly make it less good than it would have been. But hopefully someone will want to spend some time with me because birthdays alone sound kind of crap. I want so much stuff though. In order of priority:
But as I am fairly obviously not going to be getting any of those, I think I can settle for a mildly attractive cake and some love. A girl can dream though :)

I wish that everyone was nice to everyone else. I wish I could fix the world's problems. I wish the world's problems weren't so huge. I wish the world would shut up for five seconds and notice that though it may have huge problems, people have problems too. And they might not be as huge but they probably seem it. I wish that I could fix those people's problems. I wish I was less self-centered and more tolerant. I wish everyone was a little more blunt. I wish courtesy was more common. I wish people would learn from their mistakes. I really just wish that everyone was nice to everyone else.

I found out that a silly boy is smitten by a pretty girl today. It made me very happy, I hope it's true. I love that people fall in love with each other. It's really such a lovely concept. Just think about existence and how breathtaking it already is, and then add in the idea that people become so intrigued with another person that they constantly think about them and wish to spend every waking second with them. Add the idea that a person can become entirely selfless in their desire to simply partake in another's company. That my friends, is a beautiful, beautiful thing.
Sometimes I imagine that my phone is ringing if I want someone to call. And then I'm all like 'Noo, don't be stupid, you're imagining it and you know it!'. In the end though, I always have to go and check it just to make sure. And then I have a bit of a lol about how pathetic that is. And then I realise that I just laughed at myself for doing something pathetic all alone which is even more pathetic. But still quite funny. I think that entertaining oneself is a lost art. I aim to bring it back into fashion. That's a complete lie. But I told you it was a lie so it's allowed, yeah?

Woah. This is a really strange and contradictory post. I want to meet one of the romantics. Like a romantic poet or writer or painter. I just want to talk to them a bit, I want to know if they're normal.

And...thend!

Had a bit of a lol over that one.

So, I've had two sleepovers in two days, it's been great. I might sleep at home tonight, I guess we'll see. I keep on meeting awesome people and falling in love with them. When on earth did this start? I don't think I've been this quick to love forever. Recently I feel like I've just started to see beautiful people everywhere I look. Have these people always been there and I've just been ignoring them? Or have they just started to exist? How is this even possible? Maybe I'm just lucky.

Had a nice chat with some lovely people this morning over breakfast as it was one of my favourite people's eighteenth birthday. Everyone is turning eighteen. It's crazy. They're not kids anymore. We won't be young forever. Actually I lie. I think I'll probably be a kid forever and I know plenty of people who will too. Because it's important not to take yourself too seriously I reckon. But that doesn't mean that life can't be seriously amazing.

But I'd better go and clean my room. Angry parents can make life a little less enjoyable :)

I want you to want me.

"Those who restrain desire, do so because theirs is weak enough to be restrained."

-William Blake

Let them look at me. I will show them the meaning of strength.

Sometimes I wish I was really indie, just so that I wouldn't have to explain all of the abnormal things I like to do. But I don't really want people to think I'm a wanker, and you can't have both.

I've been thinking for ages about how I could use the word 'conducive' in a clever and relevant sentence here. I can't so I just wanted it to be known that I really like the word and really want to use it. I want to go to Muse so bad, and I realised today that I can totally afford it. But I'm not going to be in the country and neither is the person I could've gone with. So that plan sucks arse.

In other news I have badly I want to be this boy:


A lot of respect for you son, a lot of respect.

And these chillers have made my day, I want this so much.

Ohh, Lord. I am so happy from watching this. So, so happy.

I want to dance now. Dancedancedance.

(:

I have letters written to me, and they make me smile.

I uploaded heaps of photos just then, but they're from ages ago. I still want to put my fave ones up just because I can. It also made me realise how worthwhile taking pictures is. So, in no particular order, here is some of my life:

These are both of my baby cousin, her twin is my goddaughter, but she was sleeping at the time. This makes me feel like I haven't seen them in ages, I'll have to smother them with my love at some point. Maybe next Saturday would be good.

This was my favourite sculpture from the Ron Mueck exhibition that I went to see ages ago. It was incredible. The other one is just a painting in the foyer of the gallery which I liked because it was of the roof and I had a good time imagining how the painter painted it.

This is a fur cape which was *BORROWED* from school for a tribal themed party last night. I cannot explain how good it was. It was just so warm. I wasn't wearing much else to be honest and while everyone else was freezing, I was warm as because of this cape. Shame I'm returning it, I think I'm a bit in love with it. It was also helpful due to the fact that I went and stayed at a friend's house afterwards and it is so big that it could cover my whole body which meant that I and two blankets on, ergo I was really, really warm.

I'm not exactly sure why these pictures are like this. I know my camera is pretty bad, but I didn't think it was this bad. Oh well, I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually. In the mean time:

Ohhhh baby. Nick Dal Santo you iz fineee.
I hope they win tonight. Once when I was in Primary School they played the Dogs and lost by just a few points and I cried. I really love footy, and I am deeply saddened by their losing streak. But chin up boys, I still love you!

This is pretty much me all the time:
I just love tea.

So yeah, I'm really tired but not in a bad way. I feel content.
Do you ever ask yourself if you're a good person? I do all the time. I think I'm starting to finally form an answer.

Okay, lovers, have a lovely morning, day, evening, night, week, month, year or life.
I'll be seeing you :)
xxx

Atheism is a non-prophet organisation.

I really like puns, guys. I heard a good one today but I can't remember it. But I'm glad I heard it, because seven days without a pun makes one weak.

OHHHHH I GOTCHA! YOU DIDN'T EVEN SEE THAT ONE COMIN' AND THEN WHAM I HIT YOU RIGHT WHERE YOU LEAST EXPECTED IT! IN THE PUN-CREAS!
Ok so that one wasn't as good quality but let's not be too quick to judge.
Anyway, what's new in my life? More accurate question, who even cares? Probably no one, but if you're reading this then you must be here for a reason and that's most likely to do with stalking. Maybe I can give you a few tantalising tit-bits to get the stalking juices flowing.
-Had a free period one and six today, it was the best. A certain Bear and I entertained ourselves greatly by filling Skunk's coffee with sugar. It was sweet as (Note further use of the pun)
-I have nothing to wear to a tribally themed party and I have no money. I'm so, so tempted to go nude but I think I might be freaking freezing/I don't really know everyone who's going.
-It's Moo's birthday and I love him bigger than the world.
-I saw an ex-lover today and was amused by the amount someone can change in a year, aka. turn into a gangsta. But was also pleasantly surprised with the manner in which I managed to deal with the situation. I like this me.
-I'm a bit lonely at present, and wouldn't mind an overly large hug from a few specific people. Maybe one specific person.
-I have a maths test tomorrow which I will hopefully pass and then all shall be well. Until the exams next week. Ayyee.

I remembered the pun. Wow, I can't believe I forgot it, how pathetic, my dad clearly tells me this all the time:
Did you hear about the guy who sent ten puns to friends, in the hope that at least one of the puns would make them laugh? Unfortunately, no pun in ten did.
Now really, what are dads for if not to make hilarious and terrible and often very rude jokes?
Nothing at all.
Not really, I love my dad :)

Also, really feeling a Laura Marling vibe lately;
He greets me with kisses when good days deceive him and sometimes with scorn and sometimes I believe him.
And sometimes I'm convinced my friends think I am crazy, get scared and call him but he's usually hazy.
By one in the morning day is not ended, by two he is scared and sleep is no friend, and by four he will drink but cannot feel it, sleep will not come because sleep does not will it and I dont believe him.
Morning is mocking me.